How nice it is to be a non smoker!

I've always envied non smokers for having healthier life, for enjoying their meals, parties, conversations, handle their stress without cigarettes. For not get hooked and be slave of Nikontine. I often thinking how nice my life would be if I have never touched the first cigarette. I remember the days when I got panic and nervouse if I forgot my cigarettes, I rather went back home just to pick it up. And the panic when I was out late at night and in fear of running out of cigarettes. Non-smokers do not suffer from it. Remember I have to have stocks of cigarettes before weekend, because I was going to smoke like a chain in parties and dinner, even in my backyard.

I remember my son often asked me, when am I going to stop smoking, because it will hurt me, it will kill me. He asked the same question again and again. And it was killing me, hurting me, that I couldn't give him an answer. I could not stop. Because of this nikotine trap that I had in my blood and my brain. Like all traps, it is designed to ensure that you remain trapped. I thought I would never be able to stop smoking. 

I know cigarette is bad right? I can read, I am not stupid. But tell the smokers that it is killing them, and the first thing they will do is to light a cigarette. But when it is coming from my son, it hurting me so badly, it made me cried. There is not a parent on this planet, whether they be a smoker or non smoker, that likes the thought of their children smoking. This means that all the smokers wish they had never started.
Reading Allen Carr book made me realized that no one can help me to stop, no pills, no doctors, no chewing gum, just my self. He brainwashed me, that the only thing that prevent me from quitting is FEAR! Fear that life wouldn't be the same anymore, life wouldn't be enjoyable.

Today is day 60 that I am free from cigarettes, I am one of them, the non smokers, who enjoy my meals, my coffee, my wine, my conversations, all without cigarettes. Everything taste better now, my meals tasted better, my coffee and my wine taste better, my clothes smell better. I can't tell you how nice it is to be able to look at all the smokers not with a feeling of envy but a pity. I was there and I escaped from this slavery.
*I am also very proud of my husband that did it very well too, we helped each other, we escaped. We enjoy life more now being non smokers. WE HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO LOSE! AND SO MUCH TO GAIN!